♥ @ Sunday, November 12, 2006 ♥
sumtyms cryin makes me fil soo damn sick.. y do i hv to shed tears?? why m i filin lyk shit ryt nw?? im nt bein myself lately.. ya, i did smile.. i did laugh.. bt y deep down im nt filin lyk wt im filin?? oryt2.. i dunoe wt i reli wan in lyf!!
mama hs bin worryin bout me lately.. at tyms i fil bad for makin her worry.. bt mama, trust me il take gd care of myself.. i din go bck ysterdae.. spent e nyt at rabia's place.. she called rabia cos she cudnt get tru me.. she was damn worried.. she noes tt ive nt bin myself n tt im bein stres up.. after awhile i msged sayin dun wori bout me cos il b ok.. n i tol her hw much i love her.. tears js dropped.. she replied me "Love u too. n take care".. n tears js cant stop rolin.. without her, i dun tink il b able to live.. she is damn important in my lyf.. wt life would b without her.. mama, i love u soo much!!
as im blogin ryt nw, tears js welled up in my eyes.. decided not to let it roll down.. cos i dun wana cry soo badli n den hv swollen eyes.. i hd enuf of all tis cryin al tis while.. myb its tym for me to tink wt i reli wan..
to wardi.. im sorie to hurt u cos i cant bear hurtin myself.. i noe hw much u love me.. i noe hw much u dun wanna let me go.. bt im sorie.. for now, i js wana be al alone.. i js wana live my own life.. i js dun wana disturbed.. hope u understn.. no mater wt, life hs to go on.. u cn scold me, u can shout at me for al i care.. haishh.. im sorie.. u js tkc..
havin soo many problems at head, u js fil sick n mor sick w lyf.. bt life stil has to continue.. wts life is ryt without ups n downs?? it wont b lyf its onli ups or if its onli downs..
bein alone for now..
I dont ask much in life.
