♥ @ Friday, November 17, 2006 ♥
wts w life mann?? OH GOD!! pls help me out w this.. hope tt il b much mor stronger each dae to face al tis.. yah.. bis sumtyms din blog.. noe y?? fedup w lyf!!
n pls.. sumone out dere.. stop iritate me.. wteva i do now doesnt hv to do anitin w eu anymor.. even if u hate wteva im doin nw, ur noboby to me.. so back off!! stop it mann..! stop all tt waiting under my blok.. stop all tt msgs n calls.. js stop tt SHIT!.. n most importantly, stop lookin for my frens n family!! dey r innocent.. its btwn u n me.. n its over.. wt else mann?? y do u hv to find dem n make their life miserable?? u wont feel guilty doin tt.. bt i m.. every nite i tink of al tis.. wen wil tis wil eva end wen in fact its oreadi ended..??
to nora, im sorie.. i noe u hv been damn stressed cos of me.. im damn sorie.. i dunoe y he js cant let me go.. i myself not sure wt else he wans.. its oreadi over.. bt he dun get it.. he tol u tt tis is not about getin involved ryt?? in fact, it is.. he din realise it! one dae i hope he understans al tis shit.. i reali dunoe how to face u nowadaes.. since e dae u msg me, i felt as if i put u in e wrong position.. im sorie gal..
to din, ive got ur msg.. its nt tt i dun trust u n e rest.. bt im confused wen u sudenly kip kolin n msgin me askin me where i m after i broke of w him.. tts y i fil as if u n him are in a team.. who knows ryt?? furthermor he u guys noe each other longer.. i dunoe.. soo confused.. wanted to share w u bout it al bt i js cudnt.. i mite s wel kip it to myself n strugle on my own.. ryt?? wel, i dunoe wt else lar.. serius.. i js nid to b alone.. bt u guys kip hauntin me n frens.. haish.. wt wrong did dey do to u guys??
to mama, im sorie for makin u worry al tis while.. im certain tt il b ok.. n wteva i do outside, i alwys tink twice.. n i definitely noe wts wrong n wts ryt.. so dun wori oryt?? i noe how to take gd care of myself.. lyk ive tol u, i wana b alone n release stress tts y i seldom be at home.. im nt enjoyin outside.. u nv noe hw much ive cried.. bt i js kept it to myself.. haishh.. dun wori ma.. i alwys tink of e consequences b4 i do anitin outside.. love eu..
to erni n dzul, dun worry about me.. as e eldest sis, i noe how to take care of myself.. even if i din go home.. u guys noe e reason y ryt.. its nt tt im bein hapi outside.. i js wana run away fr al tis shit.. i noe its wrong to do tt bt ive got no choice.. i noe runin away fr problem is runin into problem.. bt.. il setle it on my own.. js dun follow my footsteps.. study hard n make mama n myself proud ok??
to someone out dere, thanks alot for being dere for me.. ive bin troublin u alot.. i noe u too hv lotsa problems to tink of, bt instead i stil trouble u w al tis.. haishh.. im damn sorie..
to wardi, please.. life has to go on.. no point holdin on to it.. ur js 18.. please stop al tis.. furthermor, u stil hv a long way to go.. n pls stop givin trouble to others.. its between u n me.. get it? U N ME.. its nt bout dem.. u dun hv to trouble dem by kolin n iritate dem askin bout me.. cn u get e fact?? ITS OVER.. i dun wana b harsh to u bt u forced me into tis.. haishh.. pls larr.. enuf of al tt ive bin facin al tis while.. if its legal in our religion to commit suicide, i wud hv done tt long tym ago.. bt i tink twice.. i tink of e people around me who love me.. n i dunoe y i shud put others b4 myself.. haishh... js move on w life.. no more waitin 4me under e blok plss.. i js hate it mann!! pls pls pls understn.. i beg u plss... n plss no more findin my frens js to noe every single ting i do.. plsss.. no more nonsense fr u plss.. i beg u larr..!
haishh.. wts w lyf?? myb tis is wt we called lyf.. stil, it has to continue.. im movin on w lyf even if its damn hard.. pple sae its bits n pieces of lyf.. n ive learnt one ting.. trust ur ownself.. ive bin trustin people bt in e end, they gv me shit! so hw m i supose to trust people again.. wt til ive found e real meanin of trust..
bein on my own..
I dont ask much in life.
