its oreadi 2pm!! n i js woke up.. im werkin lounge later at 5! soo damn tired.. haishh.. ystdae wasnt my good dae.. i did enjoyed myself bt at e same tym i hurt myself.. get it?? if nt, its oryt denn..
i cried myself to slip ystdae.. i wanted to b alone.. i wanted no one's sympathy!! i js need sum space!! cryin myself to sleep is e onli ting tt i cud do.. tears js cant stop rollin.. soo many feelings came runnin to me.. soo many questions in head! i dunoe.. i reli dunoe!!
n mama spoils my morning!! she asked for 200 to pay for e bills n stuffs.. fcuk!! where m i supposed too get tt frm?? fcuk manN!! she's killing me!! in fact she's werkg n has js got her pay.. bt nobody noes where the money gone to.. onli God noes..
its nvr been an easy task for me bein e eldest daughter.. i hate it mann!! i hate it!! i wana stop werkg aft i start skoolg.. alto i noe i js cant bear to leave my werkplace.. bt il try my very best.. cos i need to focus more on my studies.. i need to back up n stop wastin any year!!
anywae, ystdae was e dae where me, him n nora talked tings out.. nt sayin tok tings out, bt we were bein open in one particular topic.. n i reli din expect tt she keeps it quite long.. after few months den she talked abt it.. bt its oryt.. n at e same tym, i got mad.. cos detty hates me for wt ive done.. fcuK it! i dun even wana gv a damn.. its ok.. lyk nora said, its between me n her, y do detty has to get agitated til she has to hate me tis way.. wel, i dun mind..
now ive gt al e answers... haha! finaly mann.. cos al tis whil, she has been reactg in a such way js to make me mad n jealous.. bt nw c wt happens?? nora get mad herself! at e very least, tink of ur fren who eva helped u out lar..
nora,
i do understnd.. i noe how u feel.. n at e same tym, its over.. lyk u said, lets forgive n forget.. n lets close e old chapter n lets begin w a new one.. our friendship has nt been good.. bt i hope after al those hart to hart tok, it'll b bck lyk hw we used to b.. n abt her, js ignore abt it al.. if u tink tt u wana slowly back off, js do so.. i myself got no say.. bt do tink twice.. its nt lyk im sayin its a bad way.. bt tink of al those tings tt she has done for u.. i dun bear any grudges towards her aft al tt she has done.. ur big enuf to tink nora.. no matter wt, im here.. take care babe!!
baby,
im sorie abt yestdae.. i reli dunoe wts gone into me tt i feel s if my whole world is ending.. haishh.. nvthles, i enjoyed myself bein w eu ystdae.. i tried to b alone aft we went bck.. bt it got worst.. haishh.. i dunoe.. im soo tired w lyf at tyms.. i hate it!! bt tinkg twice, y do i hv to hate tis life of mine wen u r a part of it.. ryt?? im tryin my bes to b a gd gal to u.. ive bin tryin.. haishh.. sudenly i mish eu badly now.. i havent sms u any msg todae.. myb il do so later.. lyk u said, tis is nt a game.. n it doesnt harm to sms first n stufs lyk tt.. oryt denn.. i gtg n get ready for werk.. or else, il b late for werk.. n i dun wana waste money to take cab there!! love eu alwys.. muackz!!
..trying to be oryt..
I dont ask much in life.
