♥ @ Sunday, February 18, 2007 ♥
went back home quite late js now.. nearly 6am!! was werkin at lounge frm 5pm til 1am.. den later went to east coast park cos my aunt havin her daughter's 1yr bdae.. al my maternal families were dere.. mama has 11 other siblings.. wt a big family, u guys may tink.. of cos.. n weneva dere's a function takin place, my relatives occupy most of e places! hehe.. n wen cousins get togeta, n wen aunts n uncles get togeta s wel, tings get rowdy!! tts hw my family goes.. loud!! haha.. n al my aunts n uncles do have sense of humour.. n of cos, u wil tend to laugh al ur hart out! u gona hv ur stomache explode any moment!! haha..
wen i was dere, i kept eatg non stop mann!! kept filin up my stomache nw n den.. n to laugh out loud is damn tiring too! haha.. wel, i did enjoyed myself.. werk was tiring.. bt to take gd care of mama's hart, i had to forced myself to go to e pit cos she has bin telin me tt ive nt bin seein my relatives for soo long.. so i did..
at e same tym, was quiet upset w honeyy.. nt soo sure y.. bt i did explain.. ya, he has nt bin himself lately.. bt at e very least, he did apologize n realise it al.. im oryt w tt.. i dun mind.. myb i shud blame myself instead.. cos hs bin makin a big fus out of thos lil tings.. at e same tym, i realised tt i wil start makin al tt fus weneva i noe tt im nt gona spen e tym w him or cant mit him up on tt dae.. n den everytin js starts.. bt to avoid al thos tings, i js love keepin silent.. nt wantg to reply or call him up.. bt in e end, aft realisin hw much i mish him, il start to reply.. haha!!
ive alwys tried my bes to b a gd gal.. cos i noe i havent achieve it.. im stil tryin.. n hopefuly il b able to gain it.. i alwys wish for a relationship without any arguments.. bt tts imposible! arguments makes one closer to e other.. ryt?? believe it or nt, bein w him for abt 4mths, we seldom argue.. only once or twice.. bt nw.. tings started to change.. or shud i say tt i change?? or he changes?? i dunoee.. we do argue.. nt soo often.. bt cn say, nearly often.. bt stil, we did.. haishh..
baby,
im soo sorie for all tt has bin hapenin al tis while.. myb ive bin pampered by u soo much tt wen u js sae a lil tings (nt even scold), i get upset easily.. haishh.. ive bin pampered soo much tt im bein spoilt now honeyy.. lyk wt ive told u, im tryin my veri best to b a gd gal.. cos i dun wana end up losin eu to other beta gals one dae.. haishh.. n lyk ive tol u once.. im deprived fr my family's love n care.. al i need fr u is ur love, atention n care.. ya, im receivin al tt frm u.. n im thankful tt u do understn me n my situation.. lyf wont b easy without eu b.. hopefuly, love lasts.. cos al tis while, ive bin believin tt nothing lasts.. bt aft knowin eu, i do hope it finaly lasts.. love n mish eu!
..mishing him..
I dont ask much in life.
