js got back home.
such a tiring yet terible n worst dae.
tot he wud b dere to make me smile
aft a tirin fcukin dae (lyk he alwys did)
bt NO.
yet tings gt worst.
durin werk, gt scolded by my manager.
i wasnt bein myself.
i din focus.
thos tings abt ystd stil lingers..
yet another nightmare i got todae.
uGHh!!
wts wrong w life?
or shud i ask wts wrong w me?
since ive alwys been e one at fault.
sat dwnstairs n cried my hart out.
aft filin quite ok, i went bck..
bt goin bck js make me shed mor tears.
uGhH!
such a fcukin bad dae..
at tyms lyk tis, how i wish sumone
wud b dere for me to hug..
js need sumone badly ryt nw for me
to hug tightly n js cry.
bt no one.
no one.
no one is dere for me.
uGhH!!
im al alone by myself.
cryin n suferin.
js wanted to go sumwhere n shout out loud.
js to release al thos tings tt hs bin in me
for quite sumtym nw.
it js kils me!!
ITS KILLING ME SOFTLY.
get it??
UGh!
to him,
i noe ul b readin tis.. u r e onli one who understn me inside out.
u alwys b dere wen im in need.
bt at e same tym, u r e one who hurt me deeply.
myb i shudnt blame u.
im e one whos at fault..
im to b blamed.
im sorie.
im sorie for al thos shit tt hs bin hapenin.
tings btwn us js get worst n worst.
i tot by tryin to kip a distan fr u,
we'll be better.
bt No.
ugHh!!
im confused.
im nt sure wt else to do.
cos wtv i do hs nv bin rite.
i wont disturb u.
i wont sms u.
u cn enjoy uself s much s u wish.
il b fine..
i cn nv b a gd gal.
eventho i tried.
n even i tried, i cn nv b.
wts e pt trying?
uGhH!!
im soo tired of shedin tears now..
gez il js stop blogin.
luckily im werkg trmw.
at e veri least, i cud kip myself bz..
it wil den refrain me fr shedin tears n tinkin so much.
im soo tired now..
reli reli m..
gota go n res now.
il js switch of my fone..
so no one cn reach me.
take care pple.
soo tired w life..
.cryin myself to slip.
I dont ask much in life.
