♥ seveneleventwothousandsix ♥

♥ @ Tuesday, October 02, 2007 ♥

i reli dun wana sae much..
im tryin my fcukin bes to change..
change for e beta, for e future..
but..
nvm, dere's no point sayin..
i reli dun expect much..
ive given u e freedom,
bt tt doesnt mean u need nt msg me ryt??
even if u dun wana msg me, wel at least
tel me tt u gona b bz online or watsoeva
so i dun hv to wait for ur reply or wtsoeva.
haish.
i dun wana make a big fcuk out of it..
im bein very patient..
bt dere's alwys a limit to everytg..
niwae, i promis i wont ask much..
i wont hurt u either..
let me js sufer on my own,
even if im dyin n cryin inside..
at e veri least i dun hurt u..
im bein at my bes to undstn u..
undstn every single ting tt u wan..

haish.
haish.
haish.

im js ur gal..
ive totali gt no ryt at al
to control r to sae anitin..
totali no ryts..
im stil bein very2 patient..
im tryin my best nt to argue animor..
(bt i noe tts imposible)
e bes wae is js to keep silent..
im js too afraid tt my action or words
gona hurt or make tings worst or wtsoeva..
tts e reason y im bein kinda quiet nw..
keepoin every single ting to myself..
its ok if ive gt to sufer alone..

too much tings hv hapen tis fastin mth..
i dunoe y..
probably its js to test us..
bt its kinda..
i dunoe.
forget it..

went for interview js nw..
went alone..
cos frens were al bz w bfs..
while my bf is restin..
so, decided to go alone..
haish.
den went threadin w serine at tekka mal..
aft tt we walked to bugis n fr dere
we went our separate way bck home..
wanted to meet him up bt since he said
he wana res n stufs, den il js go bck..
wel, its bin 2daes ok.
forget it.
before my tears roll down
(it seems to roll dwn any tym)..
wel, im ok..
seriusli im ok..

ive gt tis confesion to make..

im js ur gal..
ive gt no ryt to control..
n ive gt no ryt to sae anitin.
BUT its kinda hard to acept
if one dae my guy is goin out w
other gals (onli e both of dem)..
okok.
love is suposedly to b beautiful..
love is actuali a white piece of paper,
covered w beautiful n colourful roses
tt represent e gd n beautiful tings
n nt forgetin e thorns which actuali represent
e rocky surface n bad tings..
bt at tyms, love hurts!
baby, i seriusli wont control u..
tts y weneva u said "no", i alwys
try to undtsn.. i wont get angry or shout at u..
in fct, i keep mum n deep inside onli god knows.
s long s i dun show it in front of my loved ones,
it shudnt b any problem hopefuly..
niwae, i mish eu too.. :'(

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