♥ seveneleventwothousandsix ♥

♥ @ Saturday, June 07, 2008 ♥

i was searching for my wallet
when my handphone beep.
ya, it was him.
never expected him to sms me..
he asked me to check my blog.
so i went reading it.

to my amaze, he actually post
e conversation that i typed in msn.
when i typed those things,
he remained quiet.
so, i logged out and
checked on my handphone.

indeed, there was one sms from him.
saying sorry for being rude and wish me
good afternoon. it was an hour ago.
if ive read that message earlier, i guess
we wont be arguing right now.

have bin crying since
yesterday night.
woke up with swollen
eyes and was asked
by mama. i had to lie,
saying that i didnt
have enough sleep
the day before.
but she knew i was lying
and she asked more
but i kept on saying
nothing was wrong.
went to sign in to msn
and started arguing again.
tears keep rolling.
i was sitting and chatting
outside my place.
with those tears rolling,
i cant hide it from my neighbour.
being too emotional, i went
signing out, checked my handphone,
searched for clothes and ironed it.
thought of going out.
called serine up if she got any plans.
meet up will be at somerset mrt at 6pm.
thinking again, i dont feel like going out
with anyone, i rather be alone.
so i sms-ed her, telling her that i will
be going out with my mom to
my aunt's place (in fact mama
has already went out hours ago).
i just need time on my own.

i am sorry for not
being understanding.
there are more
things for me to learn.
at times like this, i truly need
u by my side.
bt after all those things,
i never want to
put high hopes again.
i am sorry to pressure u
with all my tears.
i will try my best not to
tell u wheneva tears are rolling.
i will try to keep it to myself.
at least i am suffering it all
alone by myself.
im sorry once again.

i was supposed to go out by now.
but when i received his sms,
here i am reading and blogging.
thought of deleting that
entry that he post,
but i guess i will just leave it.
my make up has been smudged
by these stupid tears of mine.
i should touch up and get going.
for now, i guess i just remain
silent.

im sorry.

i hate it this way