♥ @ Friday, November 20, 2009 ♥
its been such a long time
since i last updated this blog of mine.
i have been enjoying life too much
with loved ones that ive forgotten to
write it all down in this diary.
nevertheless, life has been great
and doing better for me.
just a lil update.
if i were to put it all in words,
this entry will be super long. :)
days after days,
plans after plans.
without us realising it,
the day will be here soon.
yes, im excited but at the
same time, im afraid.
afraid that i cant handle it
all by myself.
its a relieved to tell mom slowly about it.
i know i havent been giving her enough lately.
but trust me, i will take care
of you till end of days.
i promise you that mom..
the other day, sister asked if im really
getting married and expressed her feelings.
she said, "We are sad cos we will be
losing a family member.."
and right after that, my lil baby brother
just turned to me with his sad face.
then i sat at a corner, holding
on strongly to my tears.
You are not losing a family member,
in fact its an addition. :)
i know ive not done much at home,
i know i have not been a good sister
to my younger siblings and have not been
a good daughter to my parents.
i am trying my best to change myself
to be a better person just before i
commit myself into greater responsiblities.
nevertheless, if i were to move out,
i will never forget where i come from
and who my loved ones are.
ok, enough of that
before i started shedding tears.
emotionally unstable. :)
work has been fine but tiring.
very soon i gotta take over my collegue
while she is away, studying and preparing
for her examninations.
i wonder how am i going to face all those
stress and work load.
may force be with me.
yesterday, exactly at tewelve
right after antm, i went down to my babyboy.
smiling away and feeling proud myself.
i remembered clearly how it all started.
i had it enrolled on my 18th birthday.
and started having those practicals.
for every practical, i had to repeat a few
times. some even up to five or six times.
many times i gave up, not wanting to
continue it all.
how i remembered Honeyy was always there
for me through it all.
he stood by me and never fail to keep
giving me support.
and here i am today, riding without the P plate
because of you and your support.
without your support, i dont think
i am riding till today.
i know a few times u nearly give up on me,
but you keep pushing me through it all.
i love you baby.
i really do..
thanks for your support all
this while.
you pushed me through every
single thing.
without you, im not gonna be
a lady rider.
without you, i wont be holding
on to my higher nitec certificate.
without you, i wont be serious here
working full time.
without you, i wont gonna know
how to be strong in facing this life.
without you, i wont know how
to control my stupid temper.
and without you, im lost.
i love you more than words could ever say.
no other days that i look forward to
except fridays.
i cant wait to spend precious
weekends with you~
I dont ask much in life.
